"Look, I'm doing it!"
During my time of being an educator (4yrs of GA PreK...yikes! haha), I have stored many memories that made me view various scenarios from a different perspective. I can vividly remember watching one child in particular during center time. He was trying his very best to complete a matching puzzle. I watched him go through all the emotions, but never give up. Not once did I intervene. Soon he accomplished the task, he would yell to me from across the room like I hadn't been watching, "LOOK MS. ADRIENNE! I'M DOING IT!" I would give him a nurturing smile, nod my head, all with a reply of, "Yes, I see you! Awesome job! Keep going."
Holy Spirit brought that moment to my remembrance as I was thinking about Captivated. The Father has watched me since I came into the awareness of this. He has seen and heard the moments of me doubting the whole thing. Even asking Him, "Is this really what you want? Am I even doing this right? What if I mess up? Oh my goodness, I don't want to disappoint you. What will people think?" As those thoughts raced through my head, The Father reminded me and replied, "Do my will. What is right? What is mess? Disappoint? I want you here. I know the beginning and the end of you. I put you here. Go." For me to continue to walk and see it all unfolding, I see myself in that 4 year olds shoes, looking at The Father and yelling, "LOOK, I'M DOING IT!"
Open up before God, keep nothing back; he'll do whatever needs to be done: He'll validate your life in the clear light of day and stamp you with approval at high noon.
Psalm 37:5-6 MSG
So many of you wonder if The Father is even there in your moments of trials or tribulations. I can for sure be the one to tell you, He is and will always be. Yes, He sees the struggle and yes He knows you would like for Him to intervene and assist, but what will you learn from that? The Father watches over His children. He is pleased even if it doesn't feel or look like it. That's the enemy playing with your mind. The enemy wants to keep us in that place of wondering if we are even accepted or loved by The Father, or even better, approved by people...
I had to be delivered from people and their opinions. That's another blog, for another day.
I come to inform you and whoever else, you are loved, accepted, handpicked, forgiven by The Father and the Father ONLY, the day you were born and you can't change anything about that. Even if you decided to hate Him, He will oddly enough, still love you just the same.
That's just His love.